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Pantai Pandak, Cendering.

my dear honey...

Tuesday 28 August 2012

sesi air mata.

teringat dulu dulu mase sekolah rendah..rajin betul aku g camp. asal skolah announce ade camp, aku r org paling excited sekali nk g.. xkira la time tu sakit ke ape ke. g jugak. mak ayah memang tak boleh nk kata apa.. camp yang aku g ni ade banyak jenis.. haha.. cm kuih raya..

benda yg aku nk cerita ni pasal "sesi air mata".. mesti ade lah selalunya. aku naik muak...
aku story sikit la cmne sesi ni..



smua pelajar, sila tutup mata...tutup....jangan buka selagi tak disuruh...
oke...sekarang, tunduk kepala....mata tutup.....
smua org pun tutup mata... (aku buka la sikit2 nk tgok..haha)
lampu dimatikan...wuuu gelaapp..
tetibe, dengar suara yg bkata...

"kita semua ade ayah...ade ibu...mereka besarkan kita..mak bersusah payah lahirkan kita... mereka hantar kite pergi sekolah...kadang2, mereka marah kita bile kita buat salah..semua tu tanda mereka sayangkan kita...selalu pesan perkara elok elok.. ade masanya, kita selalu bergurau dgn mak ayah kita..apa kita minta semua disediakan..bila tak dapat, kita merajuk..tapi mak ayah akan sedaya upaya pujuk kita... CUBA AWAK BAYANGKAN.... esok, setelah tamatnya camp ini...awak pulang ke rumah.... awak nampak, ramai orang kat halaman rumah..bersongkok haji (p/s: sambil baca, cuba lah bayangkan sekali) muka semua orang nampak muram. bila awak masuk ke dalam rumah..awak tengok, sekujur tubuh, berkain kafan terbaring di hadapan awak. bila awak buka kain yang menutup jenazah tersebut, rupa rupanya...mak awak sudah meninggal dunia... awak panggil panggil mak...maakkk...bangun mak.....maakkkk.....tpi, mak tetap kaku. mak dah tak boleh bersuara. mak dah tak boleh jawab...mak dah tak ade..."

semua orang pun menangis la teresak-esak... aku yg gembeng (kuat nangis) ni, ape lagi....melalak ar sehabis2nya...dalam hati menyesal aku bayangkan..menyesal aku g camp ni..tpi pastu g lagi...jumpa lagi sesi cmni...sedih weii......ade ke dy suruh bayangkan kematian org yg plaing kita sayang...hisshh...memang sedihh laa...

tpi, bile dh selalu sgt kene cmni, aku dh xde perasaan dah nk nangis..airmata pun xnk kuar dh...siap aku boleh hafal lagi ayat dia..haha....

aku rasa cm nak buat la kat students aku....nak tengok macam mana reaksi dorang....timbul x keinsafan tu... tpi, aku takut aku yang nangis dulu sebelum dorang...ahahahaha..teacher terover plak...hee ^^

with no title.


Walau aku senyum bukan berarti
Aku selalu bahagia dalam hari
Ada yang tak ada di hati ini
Di jiwa ini hampa

Ku bertemu sang adam di simpang hidupku
Mungkin akan ada cerita cinta
Namun ada saja cobaan hidup
Seakan aku hina

Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Untuk temaniku dalam sepi
Tangkap aku dalam terang-Mu
Biarkanlah aku punya cinta

Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Aku juga berhak bahagia
Berikan restu dan halal-Mu
Tuhan beri aku cinta

Ku bertemu sang adam di simpang hidupku
Mungkin akan ada cerita cinta
Namun ada saja cobaan hidup
Seakan aku hina

Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Untuk temaniku dalam sepi
Tangkap aku dalam terang-Mu
Biarkanlah aku punya cinta

Tuhan berikanlah aku cinta
Aku juga berhak bahagia
Berikan restu dan halal-Mu
Tuhan beri aku cinta

* Lirik lagu TUHAN BERI AKU CINTA *



"aku bagi kau masa 3 bulan. aku confrim, kau akan sedar yg idup single ni boring sbelum 3bulan."

mungkin benar kata katanye itu. sekarang aku percaya ayat kau. aku baru sedar, aku sunyi tnapa dia. hari ni, aku baru rasa kehilangan dia. aku seakan dpat merasai, tiada lagi istilah kasih dan sayang dlm hubungan selama ni. smua ilang sekelip mata. mungkin kerana kekurangan diri aku yg xdapat dia terima.

sepatutnya aku sedar. xsmua org boleh terima kekurangan orang lain. blog..kau nk x..aku dh xde tempat nk luahkan smua ni.. aku cerita smua kat sini ye... tpi, aku x ngadu kat ko je..aku ade Allah...pas solat..selalu aku mngadu kat Allah.. kalau boleh, aku pun nk juga rasa bahagia cmne yg kawan2 aku rasa... aku rindu kebahagian yg aku rasa 3tahun lepas..saat aku terima dia.


Monday 27 August 2012

menyakiti tanpa sedari

kita tak sedar. kadang2, diri kita sendiri la punca hati kita disakiti. tak pandai mengawal perasaan. perempuan? hati perempuan memang sgt mudah utk menyayangi. kerana itu lumrah ciptaannya. hati yang begitu mudah lentur, luluh. aku sedar, andai tersilap langkah, hati akan musnah. bagaimana dgn mudahnya, aku boleh suka kepada seseorang? begitu mudah juga aku membenci sesorang. ini soal hati. tiada siapa boleh mengerti. 


"mengadulah pada Allah. itu jalan terbaik."
terima kasih atas nasihat ni. aku tahu, semua yg dtentukan, terbaik untuk aku jdi seorang hamba yg kuat. ini dugaan Allah beri untuk menguji kesabaran dan ketabahan hati aku sebagai insan yg lemah. kadangkala, aku xkuat. mengalir airmata mengenang nasib. tpi, aku tahu, pasti ade lagi yg lebih parah dr ini. mngapa mereka boleh kuat? mgapa tidak aku? 

aku yg silap dlm hal ni. aku terlalu mudah melepaskan hati utk bertamu dihatinya. tpi, hati yg lain bjaya terlebih dlu merajai hatinya. ini bukan salah dia. ini salah aku. begitu bodoh terlena dek perasaan sendiri.
hanya semudah memberikan gurauan, menghantar mesej..hati jdi leka.. betapa goyahnya iman aku.. ASTAGHFIRULLAHALZIIM.. :(

sjak peristiwa bberapa tahun lepas..aku jadi serik nk berkawan dgn lelaki yg dah berpunya.. tak kira la boyfriend ke, tunang ke, atau isteri skalipun. aku takut disalah ertikan. seboleh2nya aku akan jauhkan diri dari dia.. bukan nk emmutuskan silatul rahim, cukuplah sbg kawan biasa tanpa perhubungan telekomunikasi dan lain lain....

aku kena teruskan smua ni.. xboleh terus2 tersungkur..kena bangkit! perjalanan masih jauh.. berbahagia lah dgn kebahagiaan mereka.. doakan yg terbaik sudah cukup buatnya... ubatlah hati dgn zikrullah dan kalamullah..insyaAllah, ada jalan buat aku :D

S.E.M.A.N.G.A.T

bukan mudah untuk aku terus berdiri sbg seorang guru praktikal. ya. aku tahu. sesetengah org memandah rendah pada guru guru praktikal. tapi, tahukah mereka, tanggungjwab guru praktikal hampir sama saja dgn guru-guru tetap..? Pernah ke mereka rasa menjadi guru di sekolah walaupun untuk sehari? berdepan dengan gelagat pelajar yg begitu menguji kesabaran aku sebagai manuis biasa. Alhamdulillah la dpat students yg baik, dengar kata. tapi, ada juga sebaliknya. takkan nk biarkan saja? tidak. aku harus mencari jalan bagaimana utk menarik phatian mereka dalm sesi pembelajaran. ye. berat benar amanah seorang guru. aku akui bukan mudah untuk mendidik. walaupun menjadi seorang GURU memang cita cita aku,tak bermakna aku tak susah. jujur, kadangkala, aku juga tersungkur. payahnya nk bangun semula. tpi, aku tanya semula pada diri. "nak ke dicemuh sekali lgi dgn Guru Besar mcm hari pertama kau ke SK Manir?" TIDAK. aku nak buktikan, tidak semua pelajar TESL bermasalah. tidak semua pelajar TESL xlayak mnjadi guru. kalau betul senior kami silap dan teruk, tak semestinya kami sbg junior mereka begitu juga. bagaimana mentality mereka yg begitu mudah melabel manusia? kadang kadang rasa makin jatuh bila aku lihat hanya aku saja yg beriya-iya nak membuktikan apa yang dikatakan GB itu tidak benar. yg lain? biasa. tiada tindakan. makin diulang kesilapan senior ada la.

aku pujuk sang hati, biar x terus tersungkur. aku bukan pelajar yg selalu naik ke pentas mengambil anugerah dekan. tidak pernah walau sekali. walaupun aku dh berusaha sehabis nya. aku tahu, ini peluang terbaik utk aku dapatkan anugerah dekan tu. aku cuma berusaha. andai bukan rezeki, apakan daya. terima la dgn hati terbuka. selain diri sendiri, ade lagi insan lain yg pernah dan selalu menyuntik semangat dan mengirim doa buat aku. terutama insan bergelar IBU.


Tak lupa barisan Guru dan Pensyarah yang mendoakan dan memberi semangat :)
Terima kasih buat kawan kawan juga..


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tinggal 3 minggu saja lagi tempoh praktikal, sekrang, terasa sebak nak tinggalkan sekolah. apa pun, kenyataan hidup perlu terus dihadapi. ^.^

Saturday 25 August 2012

Cerita Raya Part 2

#HARI RAYA KETIGA

Mse raya kedua time aku dgn besties aku...ayah send msg yg bbunyi "esok cancel smua program,kita konvoi g JB"
Padahal aku mmg xde pape plan pun utk raya ketiga tu so i just said ok..
so..raya ketiga, all of my family members except Mak Nor and Ayul g la JB...3 kete je pun...g umah makcik2 dan pkcik2 yg ade kat area Taman Mutiara Rini tu...

bfore g JB, kitorang beraya kat umah Angah n his wife Kak Ila...

Weee ^^

mmmmuuahhhh :*
love u mak :)

Angah n Kak Ila..
(kak ila xsabar nk bawa balik pizza tu :p)

hambekk...baju dgn dinding dh same color..haha


next.. g rumah Abah (Abang kpd Ayah)..

yg botak tu Ayah..yg tgah2 tu laa Abah...yg gelap tu abang (adik bradik sebapa)
yg kecik tu Abang (pdahal dy paling bongsu) yg kt bawah tu Amar..
dua2 muka cm nk amik gmbar pasport..ahakkss!! :P

dodol ni best...

kak ngah dgn si parsi...

pastu g umah Muksu pulak..
kolam ikan kt umah muksu...besar lg ikan tu dr tangan aku..

kete tu... :p


makan pizza kt umah muksu :)
nyummmm ^^

family members :D

setakat ini je cerita raya part 2..nanti smbung part 3 plak...hahaha


Cerita Raya Part 1

Assalamualaikum... Alhamdulillah....selesai dh umat Islam menjalani ibadah berpuasa and just celebratinng Hari Raya, hari kemenangan unutk semua... so, for sure everybody got their own hari raya stories..same goes to me..weee ^.^

come..lets these pictures tell bout my Eid :)

#RAYA HARI PERTAMA


mY sweet little family ^^
Tahun ni lain sikit cerita raya first day... bangun pagi2... siap2 terus g Tanah Perkuburan Islam Pt3, Kampung Api-Api (hambeeekkk...cm nk bg alamat penuh..) bersih2 kan kubur arwah Nenek (Mak kepada Mak aku)..sedekahkan al-fatihah...dah settle smua, balik umah...makan.... malangnya..on first day of Eid..i am not feeling well... so, hari raya pertama aku dipenuhi dgn waktu TIDUR.. mmg xbest gler ar raya raya aku sakit...tengah sedap tidor...petang tu my mak tu (wife no1 ayah) with my adik2 (adik bradik sebapa) bertandang ke rumah aku......so, Mak bg la dorang makan pe smua...

before Ayah balik umah mak Nor (mak tua), kitorang seek for the 4giveness... salam salam...minx maaf... org lain mesti minta maaf pagi pagi pas sembayang raya kan..? aku? petang bru minx maaf.... adat la berkongsi Ayah  :)
dh biasa dh pun pagi raya Ayah xde kat umah..Ayah kat rumah Mak Nor every pagi raya....
its ok for Mak, for me and for my adik adik.. ^.^

ni pulak description utk gmbar kt atas tu....
kitorang amik gmbar ni waktu malam...haha.... aku ngn Adik memaksa Mak, Ayah n Amar icluding Kak Ngah (kakak seibu lain bapa) untuk pakai baju raya masing2...sbb nk photoshoot kononye..hihi... wee :D

#RAYA HARI KEDUA
InsyaAllah, ukhuwah fillah till jannah ^^

My Girl Dayah :D
Ini kewajipan bg aku with ma besties,...raya bersama.. kalau sbelum2 ni...raya ke 4 atau ke 5 baru dpt bkumpul..tpi tahun ni, Raya kedua dh bkumpul dah..sebb start raya ke tiga, masing2 dh ade program masing2... tpi xbrape best sgt sbb ramai yg xde kt kg..jdi, cuma 6 rumah je dpt pergi....
My girl Fara n Julia ^.^
(tudung tu penting...same pulak..haha)


Dari kiri, Julia, Atikah, ME, Fara, Dayah..
si comel nii anak Atikah..Darwish namanye... kemain suka lgi dpt duit raya dr Auntie :D

dpan rumah aku....masing2 mcm tayang beg pulak...HAHA...Yang penting, sweet :P

Darwish Dawani with Auntie Belle ^^

walaupun dlm serba kesederhanaan....we have a very great time together...lots of story to share... riuhnye tetap same sejak sekolah :P

Dayah, Fara n Julia...korang mmg BEST! :D



Monday 13 August 2012

INSPIRATIONAL Story :D

small story,short story with lesson,Life / Learning /Inspirational story ,Quotes – Inspirational Quotes, Pictures and Motivational Thoughts  ,

Read this small story; Hope that makes a BIG change in YOU
The Professor began his class by holding up a glass with some water in it. He held it up for all to see & asked the students “How much do you think this glass weighs?”
’50gms!’….. ’100gms!’ …..’125 gms’ …the students answered.
“I really don’t know unless I weigh it,” said the professor, “but, my question is:
What would happen if I held it up like this for a few minutes?”
‘Nothing’ …..the students said.
‘Ok what would happen if I held it up like this for an hour?’ the professor asked.
‘Your arm would begin to ache’ said one of the student
“You’re right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?”
“Your arm could go numb; you might have severe muscle stress & paralysis & have to go to hospital for sure!”
….. Ventured another student & all the students laughed
“Very good.
But during all this, did the weight of the glass change?” Asked the professor.
‘No’…. Was the answer.
“Then what caused the arm ache & the muscle stress?”
The students were puzzled.
“What should I do now to come out of pain?” asked professor again.
“Put the glass down!” said one of the students
“Exactly!” said the professor.
Life’s problems are something like this.
Hold it for a few minutes in your head & they seem OK.
Think of them for a long time & they begin to ache.
Hold it even longer & they begin to paralyze you. You will not be able to do anything.
It’s important to think of the challenges or problems in your life, But EVEN MORE IMPORTANT is to ‘PUT THEM DOWN’ at the end of every day before you go to sleep…
That way, you are not stressed, you wake up every day fresh &strong & can handle any issue, any challenge that comes your way!
So, when you start your day today, Remember friend to ‘PUT THE GLASS DOWN TODAY! ‘

Saturday 11 August 2012

it's heart-speech..

sometimes i feel like it just a dream... u left me? is it for real??
its hard dear... really hard for me to face this reality.. i am not longer yours..

i try so hard to be okay.. i pretend that i'm okay in front of my friends.. i covered my tears with my smile..
tipu la kalau aku ckap aku x syg ko.. ko llaki pling lame yg stay ngn aku slame ni.. ex lain stakat 3,4 bulan je... we have gone through lots of thing.. and all those memory really hurt me..lets only us know those memory..

i still save your messages.. your promises..
"lupakn jelaa ma bnda yg dah lpas tu..xde jodoh.kan kite still mmber?"
yess.. its fucking easy for you to said that.. can u imagine how hell is my heart now??

i know i'll be okay but its take too long time.. or until someone come to me and make me forget bout you? its take forever for me to forget u..

u might see me smiling, laughing like nothing hell happen..

but, behind all those smiling and laughing..my heart is crying so badly!

i am really sorry if i couldn't make you happy.. sorry for always hurting you...but big thanks for being my bestfriend, my enemy, and my brother.. thanks a lot sbb sabar ngn aku selama ni...
even though you are not longer my boyfriend, but still..u are my best friend till jannah, insyaAllah...

wandy,
doakan aku dapat someone better tw! lagi handsome dr ko pun okayy jugak..hakhak..

Monday 6 August 2012

childhood ^^

Masa kite kecik2..masih berhingus lgi time main2 dgn jiran2.. mesti kita pnah buta benda2 ni...


(1)  Naik kereta, tgok bulan mcm ikut kita..pastu nk teruja plak..

(2) minta biodata kawan2 class...lgi2 kalau admire kt someone tu..lg semangat nk minx..




(3) tutup peti ais slow2 sbb nk tgok lampu tu tertutup..pastu..buat lgi...


(4) duduk depan kipas.. cakap kat kipas tu sbb nk dengar suara bertukar dan bergegar gegar..haha

(5) ni utk yg malas basuh kasut awal2..esok nk skolah, kasut xkering..apa lgi..sumbfat la bawah peti ais..esok kasut kuning je..hahaha


banyak lagi sebenarnye..ni di antara nye laa...kalau korang tak buat...x awesome la zaman budak2 korang..haha..masa kecil x bahagia la tu...nampak mcm kelakar..tpi, its about learning actually..

ehh..ehh....senyum lebar nmpak? pnah buat la tu......

another piece of experience.


Rasanya mcm baru semalam aku amik SPM… Masa sekolah dulu..mcm2 perangai aku buat..lgi2 masa exam… tipu la kalau aku xpnah tiru..subject pling slalu aku tiru, sejarah..dh mniru pun slalu failed! Bongokk kan..buta sejarah aku ni :p

masih segar lgi dlm fikiran aku ni..situasi stiap kali ade exam.. mesti nk dduk dkat2 dgn Dayah.. pasal aku suka tiru dy, dy tiru aku..pastu result pun lebih kurang sme..kalau bukan aku no 1, dy no 1.. haha.. 

kadang2 rasa macam mimpi pulak... dulu, aku yg amik exam..skrg aku pulak yg jaga budak2 ni exam..mcm macm gelagat la aku ngadap tdi... and ape yg dorang buat tu, dusshhh kena plak ngn apa yg aku pnah wat dulu..see? that's what we call KARMA..

Dulu..tiap kali exam...bila xde idea je..mula la aku termenung sana..termenung sini...berangan...siap tido lg kalau dh kritikal sgt...pnah mse bulan puasa..cikgu siap kejut, "kak..bangun kak..sahur"
aku ni pun dlm mimpi tu, ingatkan ayah kejut...rupanye cikgu daa~ dussshhh! malu!

aku rase..apa yg aku buat ni..msti korang pun ade wat kan? kan? ngaku je...hehe
bile dh xde idea nk tulis jwapan bongok pe lg...aku pun........
termenung nun jauhh ke sana.....hahaha
tapi..bila cikgu yg jaga periksa dtg dekat je...xpun, nmpak dy berdiri je...aku pe lgi......

hah! capai pensel..buat2 menulis siap dgn muka bsemangat lgi tuh!hahaha

actually idea nk wt entry ni dtg sbb ade student wt cmni time aku jge pekse td... tersenyum sendri aku tgok glagat dy... teringat diri sendiri...

eh..eh..knape awk yg tgah baca ni senyum2? teringat crite lama jugak ke? hehe....
sweet kan? :p

"Clowns" for Us ^^

Sengaja aku entry kan kenangan ni because for me its one of my sweet memory during my teaching practicum..

One thing yg menjadi "hantu" dlm diri aku bfore teaching practicum adalah.... dianak tirikan oleh pihak sekolah.. why? bcause it kind of tradition..bila group dr Unisza dan group dr IPG dtg ke mana2 sekolah untuk practical, for sure group UniSZA tak dipandang walau dgn sebelah mata.. knapa macam tu? sbb..menurut kata2 senior...

" yela... dorang kan for sure will be a teacher once they are graduated. not like us.. "
" time kitorang dulu...cikgu2 skolah tu mmg slalu compare kan kitorang ngn budak IPG "

Ha...tu apa yg senior kata.. Lecturer pun kata bnda yg sama... so, gila aku x takut? for sure la aku takut giler weyy!!! dlm hati ni....
"mcm mana kalau cikgu tu banding2kan aku ngn udak IPG?"
"mcm mana aku nk kerja kalau cikgu2 tu tak okay?"
"mcm mana aku nk berdepan dgn budak2 IPG tu sndiri? buat dono? buat2 peramah? ke mcm mana ni?"

perggh...gile berdebar malam sbelum praktikal tu..confirm xleh tido ni...konon je...hari first je dh bangun lambat..hampehh! konon set alarm pukul 5.. bagun dkat2 pukul 6! haha..kelam kabut semua berebut toilet..satu rumah bagun lambat.. (mase tu dduk umah sewa..skg dh dduk hostel :))

start practical...
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smpai lah satu masa... TESLians kecoh pasal budak2 IPG yg akan dtg skolah tu...aku pe lgi..
"adooii.... cmne nii...?"
yela...cuak wey...

member2 dok ckap pasal budak2 IPG yg dtg skolah dorang..
"perempuan,... giler sombong...asyik wt hal dy je..."
"dgn cikgu2 lain dorang ok..dgn kitorang tak ok!"
"eh..yg dtg skolah kitorang ok la..baik..peramah.."

ambooiii...mcm2 cte..sekolah manir cmne plak?
smpai la masanya...budak2 tu muncul... "alamak..lelaki pulak!"
and yes..kami perasan cikgu2 sekolah tu sgt menyambut kdatangan mereka...
"time kite..dorang tak cmni pun :( "
"nasib baik dorang llaki..kalau pmpuan, msti kita lg sentap!"

and kitorang teruskan tanggungjwab tu mcm biasa....


ehh..bnyak lg nk crite sbenanye,,..tp aku nk straight to the point la..tgok balik tajuk kat atas tu.... see?
THREE CLOWNS..whO??

Hehehe..sorry ye Mr Rasyid, Mr Syaffin and Mr Erfan... as i said before, thank you for being our (Me, Ida n Zaty) penyeri hidup (ahaks!)

and korang mesti tertanya-tanya...knapa kitorang ckp cm tu...kan? kan?
ok lah..this is how the story started...

one students come to me and said, "teacher, teacher patutnya kawin dgn cikgu ar rasyid!"
and i was...err...eh? apa semua ni? dh la time tu tgah berebut nk g toilet! chooiiyy!

balik g bilik guru..i told the story to Ida n Zaty..and as expected..they laughing! so do I.. KELAKAR gile weyy budak2 ni!

and benda tu bukan sekali je blaku..bnyak kali!
smpai ada sekali tu,.. sorang students perempuan ni berpaut kt tgan aku, siap peluk2 aku smbil cakap..
"teacher.....tolonglaaaaa terima cikgu ar rasyid....terima taw teacher!"
"Ya Allah...awak ni knape? kenapa teacher mesti dgn cikgu ar rasyid??"
"yela..sebab sesuai..tinggi..., teacher dgn cikgu ar rasyid.. teacher ida dgn cikgu erfan.. teacher Zaty dgn cikgu Syaffin!"
"MasyaAllah...anak2 oii.... suka2 hati je..tak boleh la..awak tahu tak cikgu2 lelaki tu dah nak kawin taw!"
"teacher tipu!"
"betol......teacher xtipu.. dorang nk kawin dh..."

hahaha.... everytime aku, Ida n Zaty sit in a table..kitorang slalu buat mcm ni..

"Zaty... mana jodoh2 kita ni? xtrun makan sekali?" hahahaha...yang Zaty ni pun melayan... so..kitorang slalu label korang as 'jodoh' according to the students thought la kan.. we not meant it actually.. saja utk happy2 sendiri... kitorang xpernah kutuk korang tw! serius :p

Kalau ade kitorang terkutuk tu, sorry ekk :p
xsengaja la kot time tuuu..hikhik

apa lg ekk...sbenanye, almost everyday lah kitorang akan gelak bila nama salah sorang drpd korang disebut2..

mula2 Zaty cm xnk layan sgt ar aku usik2 dy... pastu lama2 dy layankan...
"Ceh Zaty..konon xnk ngaku ar ko ehem2 ngn si Syaffin tu..padahal dalam diaammm..bukan main romantik kan korang bedua..?"
zaty jawab... "eiishh..senyap2 dh la.. haha"

then, kitorang pnah bfikir..macm mana kalau apa yg kita main2 ni jdi kenyataan?
(eventho dlm hati aku kuat ckp xkn jdi knyatan..saje je timbulkan soalan tu to make conversation.)

cerita zaty.. " satu hari stop kt traffic light..bell (my nickname ^^) toleh kiri..tgok sebelah cm kenal je..rupe2 nye aku ngn syaffin!"hahahahaha
aku pun smbung crite dy... " pastu aku toleh blakang..eh...3 org anak dh??! hebat!" hahaha... Zaty tetibe blur.. pastu dy kata "perlu ke aku bayangkan muka anak kitorang?" hahahahaha...

terima kasih kepada anda bertiga kerana telah menceriakan hari kami sepanjang tempoh anda menjalani praktikal di SK Manir :))

to Rasyid.. this is the answer for the statement "Sedih kitorang nanti sbb takde bhan gelak bile korang dh xde" and one more thing..... remember your question given to Ida? "kenapa Amalina tu tunduk malu2 bile nmpak aku?" ni jawapan nye ye bwang putih :p
that is the way i am.. mmg aku akan automatically tunduk bile bertembung dgn org yg aku xbiasa kenal... its not because i am shy or what so ever...its me truly..so..clear kan? aku mmg cmtu...

to Shaffin (sorry if i misspell your name)
knapa aku pggil ko Awan kt FB? Sbb nick name ko tu.. AS Wan...dh mcm Awan je skali pronounce,..hihi... jgn marah,...kurus nnti :p


nanti bile2 free, kite lepak2 sama2, ada okay ka?? :)
sorry for kekasaran bahasa...kekecilan hati,..spanjang korang kenal kitorang okay? :D

so, TESLians...they are okay..kitorang dpt badut2 ni... bawang putih(rasyid), awan(shaffin), n erfan.. and yg skrg ni, kak Amna ngn Kak Amirah pun okay.... seriuosly...good to know them..Alhamdulillah... korang yg kne dgn yg sombong2 tu, bnyk2 bersabar la ae..create la pape crite yg boleh jdikan dorang bhana ketawa utk korang... and u;ll b okay... (kuang asam punya tips :p )

sincerely, teacher Amalina ^^

Sunday 5 August 2012

jealousy...

Assalamualaikum...


I am still dont get it, why people must feel jealous with others that get something more... hello... JEALOUSY is a verryyyy terrible disease u know..i hope you'll get well soon..hahaha

i think its not something weird when your friends said something like perli2.. for me, at the end of the day, its all about jealousy...

I give u very common example..

A and B are very close friends.. bestfriend katanya...then, someday, B getting close with other friend, C... B always going out with C.. Hanging out here and there..laughing..taking pictures and what so ever.. C have a car.. so, B and C going out frequently differ with A.. B and A will only hang together at nearby places bcause there's no transport.. 

One day.. A meet B and said, "its good to have a car right?"
ehh...? 

that's enough to show your jealousy sayang,... :D

and more thing that i think its funny..HAHA
See? too funny till i laugh before i say it.. :p

Girls look at me up and down and dont say anything..i dont know those girl so do them.. the funny part is when the words come out when i walked away.... this thing always happen to me and other friends of mine...haha... hello, only with one meeting like that, u can give interpretation to me?? ouuhh...very good la you...

no need to have that kind of disease laa... if that so..u will have no time to improve your life bcoz  u'r too bz with others business.. ^^
 

Being Single???

Assalamualaikum readers :D
some people might say, its will be boring if i dont have couple a.k.a boyfriend.. and guess what? i feel the same way when i was with him before.. i was always thinking, my life will be boring if i dont have boyfriend..no one will texting me..no one will calling me at night...and so on...


but...when everything just end... i found that it was wrong! i learn to live normally like others.. who says i'm boring without boyfriend? no i am not... me even dont cry when he left me before.. how strong am i..hehehe... i know, he's not the best for me.. Allah now better.. 



so now.... i feel free ^^
but its not as a pass for me to have no limitations in my life...i am a Muslims and i have my guideline.. :D
being single is not a miserable or sucks thing.. :))


ok..this one i copied from samriddhirai.blogspot
fyi..i'm not really read all of the points :p
its really true and for sure it will help to comfort  single folks out there, who have been hurt , who have not found the love of their life, who have been separated, who are stuck in the wrong relationship and especially those on my facebook who constantly post “i-am-dying-because-the-love-of-my-life-left-me” kinda status updates. 
DRAWBACKS

PERKS
Being single means, You don’t have a special someone to go out on movies, parties or any other fun events/places with. And you might not always have a date in “standby” mode for you and even if you do score a date, chances are they might turn out to be weird and boring which sucks big time.
On the contrary, you get to go alone to all these fun events/places and be the hot single cruising the crowd. PS. Be ready to strike some interesting conversations with some awesome strangers (awesome because nothing hurts by assuming that).

Being single means, You don’t have a special someone to call or text just for the hell of it. No one to ask you where you are, what you ate for lunch or give you a second opinion on the Rs. 200 worth of wayfarers you’ve been eyeing for a long time. (FYI … Yah I did buy one of those and I can tell you, its awe---oh wait for it--- some … barney Stinson styleJ )

But you have Facebook, who always asks you “what’s on your mind”? You just type things there and you immediately connect to hundreds of your friends out there. Now come on … one person vs hundreds, to give you company and share your thoughts with??? Who would you choose? It’s like asking, would you settle for just one ordinary pair of shoes or go for an entire wardrobe- and may I add unique and varied and interesting and colorful wardrobe. Yah you know the answer. 

Being in love is a wonderful feeling. The world seems rosier, people around you are a lot nicer and you tend to smile a lot and are just so happy for no specific reason. Oh no wait, there’s a reason- the reason being, you’re in love. And when you’re single *poof * all of that is gone. You’re back to that old, cruel, evil-evil world.

But guess what? It’s your hormones messing up with your head. Did you know that in the beginning of a relationship human minds releases endorphins also known as the “happy hormone” causing you to believe you’re happy and partially (fully in some cases) disabling your mind to think clearly? Where do you think  “love is blind” phrase came from? It was science all along. And once this phase is over, it wont take long before you start noticing your, (may I dare say) better halves’ yellow toenails, fake eyelashes and/or hairy nostrils. And if you still insist on living in a rosier world, here’s a tip: go get yourself one of those rose-tinted glasses… I bet it will cost you no more than 200 bucks. (Rs. Really, but bucks sounds cooler,no :P)  

Being single means, you wont have anybody posting up sweet messages on your facebook wall. No one to share your profile picture with. Your facebook fairytale love story goes tragic.

Oh wake up! You think people care half the time who you’re sharing your ilu-ilus with? Unless, of course, if youre Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie which am guessing youre not. Com’on now , being single in facebook and having just solo pictures in your profile means you’re independent and most importantly an individual. Well that is how you came into this world, why, what made you think being a Siamese-like-couple was fun-ner. It’s not.

Being single, means there is gonna be no one around when you wanna hug, /cuddle/ kiss/caress. No one to shower you with attention and/ or love. Your world is a cold, lonely place and with each passing day your belief on you dying alone just gets stronger and stronger.  

Hey! Your parents didn’t work so hard on bringing you up so that you could be this pathetic love-craving loser. There are enough people who love you and want to see you happy. And most importantly if you don’t love yourself enough, it will be hard for others to do so. So, you need occasional hugs? Go to your friends. You wanna cuddle? get a teddy bear. You wanna kiss? Oh now, that has to wait until you start dating someone else again… and if you are the one who cannot wait and believe in pouncing at the next stranger you meet then please stop reading this .. this blogpost is definitely not for you.

Talking in the same line, being single would mean no one to hold your hands with. And every time you’d see a happy couple walking down the street , holding their hands, you swore you died a little inside. Oh sadness!

Dude! You’re not a three-year-old kid are you? You didn’t just learn to walk yesterday did you? Then why do you need to hold hands?… grow up. Plus, there is that possible sweaty hands to watch out for. Ugh. Not cool.

Being single also means, you’d have no reason to buy that hot new dress or that oh-so-cool shirt, because of course if you don’t have a “special” someone to wear it for then why waste the money on it right? Being single would also mean, starting to eat like a pig because seriously for whom to stay fit and in shape? Plus the food is comforting and a true friend during times of loneliness. 

Oh my god !!! you do that? Shame on you. And again I repeat, “if you don’t have the ability to love yourself, people will find it hard to love you too.” So pull yourself together and invest and cultivate into being an independent solo person. Remember, people aren’t a fan of those wild, thorn-filled, unmanaged shrubs. It’s the big, green, upright (better if its fruit bearing) trees that people seek shelter in. Be that big tree for yourself and for those around you.

Being single would mean, you don’t have that one person that you can talk just about anything with. You’d confess embarrassing moments, you’d share your deepest secrets, you’d yell at each other, you’d quarrel for no reason because at the end you’d know they’re still for you. Being single, would mean missing out on a person who will be there for you no matter what- your security blanket your comfort cushion.

Oh my! Now that’s pure human torture. Why would you expect to be fed with perspectives from just one person? That aint healthy. Plus you can always splurge your personal rants on blogs that would be read by thousands. So, you wanna share embarrassing moments, open an anonymous blog. Or channel your frustration or whatever you’re feeling by writing a song or a poem .. that way you’re exploring new talents along the way. And FACT: people die. Oh but the world wide web is eternal. Imagine having your thoughts and moments scribbled out there in the eternity of the www and the universe for years and decades and centuries. You’d be long gone but your words and thoughts would be still alive in the internet for generations to see    ( that is if the world doesn’t end in 2012) Now isn’t that awesome?  

Being single would mean not having anyone to whisper those sweet nothings to. Not having anyone to miss. Not having anyone to take those long walks with, possibly planning a life together. The dream house you’d build, giving names to those unborn kids you’d have, deciding which school they’d go. Oh being single means only having to plan what you’re having for your next meal and that’s just sad. 

Oh for the love of god. You call of that being in love? That’s not being in love. That’s being desperate and clingy and unrealistic and just dreamy which aint practical … snap out of it before you ruin each other lives and steal each other’s independence. Do you think FACEBOOK the biggest-most-powerful inventions of our times would have been created if Mark Zuckerberg wasted his time doing all of that? I don’t think so. Use your head , put your mind to good use …. And once you become successful at whatever you choose do .. there will be a thousand people readily begging to hear you blabber any bullcrap you have to say.

Yes, you will miss out on a lot of things if you’re single.
But also, you will miss out on a lot of yourself if you are not single.


see? everything comes with reason(s) ^^
chill~

Saturday 4 August 2012

perasaan apa ni..?

tak tahu bagaimana nak mulakan cerita. satu perasaan yg wujud dlam hati selepas subuh tadi membuat aku terpinga-pinga..perasaan dlam hati bercampur baur. sedih, sebak..rasa seakan-akan air mata mahu sepuas-puasnya dilepaskan..Ya Allah, andainya ini hidayah dariMu, aku bersyukur Ya Allah...teramat bersyukur atas hidayah ini..


Seperti biasa, bila smpai waktunya, aku bergegas trun ke bwah menuju ke kereta untuk melangkahkan kaki, menunaikan tanggungjwab sebagai seorang pendidik. saat aku langkahkan kaki menuruni anak-anak tangga di asrama, tiba-tiba pendengaran ini terpaut pada satu suara yang terlalu merdu..langkah seakan terhenti. kaki berat melangkah. perlahan lahan aku teruskan langkah.. namun, pendengaran ku masih tetap pada alunan suara merdu itu.. SUBHANALLAH... Merdunya alunan selawat dari arah masjid itu Ya Allah...

dari lunak suara itulah yg merubah perasaan dlm hati ini.. tak pernah lagi aku terpaut pada sesuatu sperti itu.. nikmatnya pemebrian ini Ya Allah..

kalau sebelum ini, tudung itu hanya keperluan pergi ke class..tudung itu hanya untuk perkara keagamaan.. rasa nk pakai, baru pakai.. rambut di dedah sesuka hati, jadi tatapan manusia bukan muhrim.. selamba tiada rasa.. namun, ALHAMDULILLAH..Keinsafan itu datang sendiri.. aku terfikir satu ketika dulu, smpai bila harus begitu? menjadi tatapan umum khususnya kaum Adam.. pujian diterima buat aku bangga.. "cantiknya rambut.." Namun, selepas satu perasaan itu wujud, pujian itu buat aku seakan panas.. bila ada pujian tentang aurat, aku tersentak..sentap hati ini... rasa macam nak maki saja mulut2 itu walaupun kata2 itu pujian sebenarnya.. tpi, aku tak perlu pujian seperti itu!

Baru semalam aku keluar, berpakaian seperti biasa, tiada tudung dikepala... malamnya, sedang berkemas pakaian yg tak berlipat, tergenggam sehelai tudung hitam ditangan.. aku tenung tudung itu.. esoknya, aku keluar lagi..kali ini aku nekad.. takkan ada lagi rambut untuk tatapan umum..

sehingga kini, ALHAMDULILLAH masih bertudung.. sedikit demi sedikit aku harus ubah.. masih bnyk lagi kekurangan diri ini.. Jahilnya aku dulu, takkan aku heret bersama mnjalani kehidupan sekarang.. aku blajar agama, aku tahu hukum agama..tapi, kenapa tak dipegang? ASTAGHFIRULLAHALZIIM..



Ya Allah, kau hidupkan aku dngan imam, maka, matikanlah aku juga dalam iman dan tempatkanlah aku di syurga bersama sama iman... :')

Thursday 2 August 2012

aku (perempuan) lamar dia (lelaki)

byk betul skg crite2 pasal pmpuan yg mlamar lelaki..perempuan ajak lelaki kawin..smua perempuan la yg start dulu...



dan comment mereka...?

"hish! apa la perempuan macam tu..buat malu je!"
"jatuh maruah weyh!!"
"dh desprate sgt ke ape??"
"ni msti dh sangap ni......xsabar sgt!"
"eeeeeeeeeeiii...gatalnyee!!!"
"xmalu, perigi cari timba!!"


ini dia mentality masyarakat melayu yg cetek... katanya tak ikut adat...
hello....adat ke agama yg penting?
sedangkan Siti Khadijah, wanita Islam agung melamar Rasullullah.... mulianya..SUBHANALLAH...
Tindakan Siti Khadijah telah mmbuktikan betapa beraninya dan besarnya hati seorang insan bergelar wanita... SYUKUR aku dilahirkan sebagai seorang perempuan....

dilemma nye seorang perempuan untuk berbuat bgitu mungkin terlalu takut jika ditolak...
girls, di terima atau di tolak itu bukan persoalannya.. Allah menilai perbuatan kamu.. sesungguhnya Allah itu maha Adil...seandainya ditolak, mungkin kerana dia, bukan yg terbaik untuk kau...Allah sedang merancang sesuatu yg indah buatmu, wanita... :D

teringat bait2 maksud satu ayat dlm surah al-baqarah... apa yg kita suka, blum tentu baik untuk kita..dn perkara yg kita benci, mungkin itu yg baik utk kita....

Allah akan beri apa yg kita perlu, bukan apa yg kita mahu.... ^^

jadi, bagi aku...lamaran seorang wanita terhadap seorang lelaki, bukanlah perkara yg patutnya di keji..malahan, sangat TERPUJI.... Subhanallah.... bgi aku..tindakan itu, menunjukkan, WANITA itu :

BERANI
KUAT
BUKTI CINTA SUCI

tpi..apa pun, kena make sure diri dua2 dh cukup bersedia utk mnggalas tanggungjawab masing2... ^^
sekian...wassalam..

sekilas pandangan puteri, Amalina Nabilah :))